God Has Been Shouting…

“God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.” – C.S. Lewis

I always thought this was an interesting quote, but until recently I didn’t really understand what C.S. Lewis fully meant by it. As Nathan mentioned in his blog post on Friday, October 10, our little boy, Jack (age 21 months now) has been quite sick for the past several months and recently diagnosed with what is most likely Crohn’s Disease (a rare thing for a child his age). In addition, we just added a new member to our family about a week ago—Hannah Grace was born last Saturday (she is a sweet joy of course!). These past few months, though, have been full of more sadness, joy, sleepless nights, hopeless and hopeful moments, stress, and blessing than I’ve ever known in my 30 years on earth. In the midst of all this, God–in his great mercy–has been shouting some rousing truths in my deaf ear. Although I’m still processing much of this, two things stand out so far.

1) God has been shouting: Depend on me and I will give you hope and peace.

When life is easy, I find it’s also easy for me to minimize who God is, the importance of His Word, and what role He has in my life. Spending time with Him becomes something to check off for the day. I become deaf to what He is saying to me. However, feeling completely out-of-control and hopeless during Jack’s illness and now with his diagnosis has drawn me closer to Him and His Word than I’ve possibly ever been. The promises in Scripture have new meaning, new weight, a realness that I can taste and feel. Some of the promises below (many of which I’ve read numerous times over for years) have brought hope and peace to my heart the like of which I’ve never experienced before.

The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psalm 34:18)

For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. (2 Corinthians 4:17)

He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young. (Isaiah 40:11)

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; 
they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:30-31)

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)

2) God has been shouting: Depend on me and I will provide for you.

God has provided for and blessed us immeasurably more than we could have imagined through this trial. The grace of God has come alive to our family through all the prayers, words of encouragement, medical guidance, meals, financial help, and so many other tangible means of support that our friends, family, and church has provided. We couldn’t do this alone and the Lord knows that. I want to thank our church body for physically showing us who God is and His faithfulness to us during this time. More than ever, I’m so proud and grateful to be a part of The Crossing.

With Jack’s diagnosis (which is a life-long disease), I imagine Nathan and I will have many more opportunities to depend on God and turn to his promises of hope and peace and provision. I know there will be—as there have already been–times of belief and unbelief through it all…but we’re praying (and thank you for praying) for our family’s perseverance in the faith.

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